Oh my gosh… that is SUCH a difficult question to answer. My answer depends on how much you really want to know.
Are you asking a “fly-by” question in order to acknowledge that I went somewhere to do some mission work and that I returned home? ( As in, “good morning, how are you?”) If so, then my answer is, “It was great, thanks for asking.”
Do you have more than a passing interest, but still want the Reader’s Digest version? In that case, I will say something like, “It was incredibly hot and dirty, wonderful and horrible, there were no major problems and it went by way too quickly.”
Or do you really want to know the ins and outs, the highs and lows, the triumphs and tragedies and what makes me want to keep going back to that faraway place, to do such hard work year after year? If so, I’ll need you to ask a different question so I can give you a better answer.
A year or two before I started going on mission trips, a co-worker went on a similar mission to Africa. When she returned, someone asked her, “How was your trip?” Her reply was, “It is WAY too hard to describe. I’m gonna need you to ask specific questions.” At the time, I didn’t realize the wisdom of her statement. Now I do. I know now that an experience like this cannot possibly be schmooshed into a one or two sentence summary.
When someone asks, “How was your trip?” it’s just not a good cue to a story about the warmth that you feel from a choppy bilingual “conversation” and hugs with a sweet lady you met while she swept the dirt in her yard… or the feeling you get when a woman walks in to the temporary clinic and hands you a baby to “love up on” because she knows you will… and she trusts you with her most precious possession.
One of my favorite bloggers/authors is Glennon Doyle Melton. In her blog, Momastery, she addresses the power of a well-asked question. I think she’d be OK with me pasting some of her words here for you to appreciate:
When I was a mama of three very tiny, very messy, very beautiful rug rats, we had DAYS THAT WENT ON FOR LIFETIMES. Craig left at 6:00 am every morning and as I watched his showered, ironed self leave the house I felt incredibly blessed and thrilled to have so much time alone with my babies and incredibly terrified and bitter to have so much time alone with my babies. If you don’t believe that all of those feelings can exist at once- well, you’ve never been a parent to many tiny, messy, beautiful rug rats.
When Craig returned each day at 6:00 pm (he actually returned at 5:50 but took a STUNNINGLY LONG TIME TO GET THE MAIL) he’d walk through the door, smile, and say– “So! How was your day?”
This question was like a spotlight pointed directly at the chasm between his experience of a “DAY” and my experience of a “DAY.” How was my day?
The question would linger in the air for a moment while I stared at Craig and the baby shoved her hand in my mouth like they do – while the oldest screamed MOMMY I NEED HELP POOING from the bathroom and the middle one cried in the corner because I NEVER EVER EVER let her drink the dishwasher detergent. NOT EVER EVEN ONCE, MOMMY!!! And I’d look down at my spaghetti stained pajama top, unwashed hair, and gorgeous baby on my hip – and my eyes would wander around the room, pausing to notice the toys peppering the floor and the kids’ stunning new art on the fridge . . .
And I’d want to say:
How was my day? Today has been a lifetime. It was the best of times and the worst of times. There were moments when my heart was so full I thought I might explode, and there were other moments when my senses were under such intense assault that I was CERTAIN I’d explode. I was both lonely and absolutely desperate to be alone. I was saturated- just BOMBARDED with touch and then the second I put down this baby I yearned to smell her sweet skin again. I was simultaneously bored out of my skull and completely overwhelmed with so much to do. Today was too much and not enough. It was loud and silent. It was brutal and beautiful. I was at my very best today and then, just a moment later, at my very worst. At 3:30 today I decided that we should adopt four more children, and then at 3:35 I decided that we should give up the kids we already have for adoption. Husband – when your day is completely and totally dependent upon the moods and needs and schedules of tiny, messy, beautiful rug rats your day is ALL OF THE THINGS and NONE OF THE THINGS, sometimes within the same three minute period. But I’m not complaining. This is not a complaint, so don’t try to FIX IT. I wouldn’t have my day Any.Other.Way. I’m just saying- it’s a hell of a hard thing to explain- an entire day with lots of babies.
But I’d be too tired to say all of that. So I’d just cry, or yell, or smile and say “fine,” and then hand the baby over and run to Target to wander aisles aimlessly, because that’s all I ever really wanted. But I’d be a little sad because love is about really being seen and known and I wasn’t being seen or known then. Everything was really hard to explain. It made me lonely.
So we went went to therapy, like we do.
Through therapy, we learned to ask each other better questions. We learned that if we really want to know our people, if we really care to know them – we need to ask them better questions and then really listen to their answers. We need to ask questions that carry along with them this message: “I’m not just checking the box here. I really care what you have to say and how you feel. I really want to know you.” If we don’t want throw away answers, we can’t ask throw away questions. A caring question is a key that will unlock a room inside the person you love.
So Craig and I don’t ask “how was your day?” anymore. After a few years of practicing increasingly intimate question asking, now we find ourselves asking each other questions like these:
When did you feel loved today?
When did you feel lonely?
What did I do today that made you feel appreciated?
What did I say that made you feel unnoticed?
What can I do to help you right now?
I know. WEEEEEIRRD at first. But not after a while. Not any weirder than asking the same damn empty questions you’ve always asked that illicit the same damn empty answers you’ve always gotten.
And so now when our kids get home from school, we don’t say: “How was your day?” Because they don’t know. Their day was lots of things.
Instead we ask:
How did you feel during your spelling test?
What did you say to the new girl when you all went out to recess?
Did you feel lonely at all today?
Where there any times you felt proud of yourself today?
And I never ask my friends: How are you? Because they don’t know either.
Instead I ask:
How is your mom’s chemo going?
How’d that conference with Ben’s teacher turn out?
What’s going really well with work right now?
Questions are like gifts – it’s the thought behind them that the receiver really FEELS. We have to know the receiver to give the right gift and to ask the right question. Generic gifts and questions are all right, but personal gifts and questions feel better. Love is specific, I think. It’s an art. The more attention and time you give to your questions, the more beautiful the answers become.
Life is a conversation. Make it a good one.
I really, really want to tell people about my mission trip. In fact, I probably want to tell more than they want to hear in most cases. My heart is overflowing, and my brain is full of details that I want to share. So in the spirit of having a good conversation, here are some ideas of questions/gifts that people like me would LOVE to receive from people like you:
What was the best day of your trip?
Tell me about your sponsor child.
Was your Breast Self-Exam teaching session all you hoped it would be?
Do you see the same people each year?
How do you know what to take with you?
What are you most proud of?
Did you make a special connection with any Dominicans this time?
Is there something you wished you had packed but didn’t?
What happens to the suitcases full of meds and hygiene supplies once you unload them?
What was the most beautiful thing you saw? The most horrible?
What are your plans for your next trip?
My trip was too much and not enough. It was loud and silent. It was brutal and beautiful.
The more attention and time you give to your questions, the more beautiful the answers become.